I knew something was wrong, but I didn't trust it." Many survivors of spiritual abuse and religious trauma say exactly this. Drawing on research into epistemic trust, coercive control and testimonial injustice, psychologist Kylie Walls explains how controlling churches and high-control religious environments teach people to doubt their own feelings, perceptions and judgment, why this makes them vulnerable to further abuse, including clergy sexual abuse and exploitation, and what recovering self-trust actually involves.